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Hannah: noun, meaning Hannizzle, Albinohippy, Han
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[Oct. 18th, 2004|01:29 am] |
ADD HANIZZLEFACE
this is my new perm el jay i promise
do it do it |
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| Cartwheels Could Be Risky |
[Oct. 16th, 2004|07:31 pm] |
I am in love with yesterday. David Nolan woke me up at like 11:30am(damn you David)wanting to hang out, but I told him I didnt know if I could. Well, I went to my grandparents house, saw my entire family and Sam, Jordy picked me + Sam up and we went to NoDa where I bought a five dollar pick of vanilla cloves. Wonderful day already. So then I called David back and we arranged to meet at da Bou, he picked me up after I waited for 30 minutes by myself because Jordan went to a soccer game, during this time I sang Old McDonald in my head and pretended to make very important calls on my cellular phone. He showed up, we smoked, then headed yonder to the Park of Freedom. David knows lots of cool tricks on the swingset. But sometimes accidents happen nonetheless. Haha oooh David. But then he did some cartwheels and we couldnt find his glasses. Seriously we never found them. So then he drove us to Phil and Tonys where we...ate pizza...oorrr did we??? And pondered on whether or not the ducks were real. They were. And then Coles came and drove David home to get contacts which was a safe solution.
Then I went to an East Meck party and saw Brent and Sean. Crazy.
A very good start to a weekend indeed. |
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| Childrens Theatre Hates Me |
[Oct. 13th, 2004|10:20 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| |  content | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Frou Frou | ] |
Brittney and I auditioned for Laura Ingles Wilder X-Mas, I didnt even get a fucking callback. Childrens Theatre HATES ME I swear to God, HATEEESS.
I saw Patrick and STEPHEN DOVALL SULLIVAN at school today for the Mars Hill Choral Audition. It was...just...an event. Ha.
I am very mad that there is an alienface el jay cause I totally could have rocked that. I'll make a better one. You'll see. YOU'LL ALL SEE!!!
Oh and I have decided that Karmacrash will be my depresso/philosophical el jay, and this shall be my happy go lucky one.
Hmmm...now what should my new el jay be...something BETTER than pilgrim face.
ah hah. got it. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|10:11 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| |  bouncy | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Trailer Trash | ] |
Sararr is in my math class now. I don't think I can handle both her and Andrew, I'll piss myself. I'm so exicted. I keep wierd having dreams about this certain person (no Eddie, it's not you) and it's kind of ironic b/c I know we have the same relationship in life that we do in these dreams but...the dreams are surprisingly...nice. Ha, I am so lucky, I have sex dreams all the time, but I guess I deserve them because I don't have real sex...all the time. Ha, kidding...or am I?
getBACKinYERcage: haha
getBACKinYERcage: i love you too
getBACKinYERcage: homo
BlewTheBlue: thankyou
BlewTheBlue: speaking of homos
getBACKinYERcage: you are one?
Haha, I rock. Speaking of rockin' where is my best friend named Jonathan? Note to ALL of Santas Helpers: Let's hang out very soon. Marc Bastos is one crazy fun kid.Especially when mixed with Brittney. I love having friends who eat as much as me cause I don't feel so alone. Yesterday, I had like an entire Roly Poly meal and some of Brittneys Cherry Blossom and I was like (to myself) "god stop eating FATASS!" and Marc was like "I KNOW, thats me!" and it was just a generally good feeling. I'm glad we are friends now. I slept for 6 hours today, and plan on sleeping some more come nightfall.
Okay, I'm done, only read pilgrimface cause I updated AND David Nolan and I have an awesome new plan. We are comic geniuses quotes the lovely Caroline Fisher. I'm hanging out with Nick Nack on Fri for the first time in 7 years. I told Mr.Joyce I would kick him in the face today if the water bottle on the floor wasnt mine, he didnt think that was funny, especially when I found that the water bottle was in fact mine, and it was the 3rd time I've done it. Oh, and I have clymidia. Oh boy, what an exciting day!...okay I wasn't done. SO SHOOT ME!
really. |
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| Support For The Shady |
[Sep. 27th, 2004|06:35 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | UNDO | ] |
Damn. I just canvassed for Eskine for about 4 hours and it was the sketchiest shit ever. So Cortland dropped this dude from UNCC (Mike) and I off Freedom Drive somewhere and we walked from door to door. No sooner than 10 minutes after they pulled away this really rough woman started yelling at us so we went over there and she was SERIOUSLY almost harrasing us. And she wasnt even on the list. So she told us to come in and fucking dumbass Mike was about to so I spoke us and said "I'm sorry we can't do that" and she said "Well yous is at MY house NOW and I said come insides." and she had a fucking bandage over her track marks. So I was trying to like...leave, duh, and she was like "Get cha hand off ya hip! That's an invitation!, you besta be careful around hea" Then she told me I looked like I came from out of "da sevendies"
It was scary but I mean, I think I needed a dosage of how the other "half" lives because I'll face it.
I'm a spoiled little brat. I didnt know what to do with myself around people who don't give a shit if they come off as nice or bitchy. It was just an educational experience in general. But I really wanted to be like "Erskine wants support from...the shady! Like you bitch! BAM!" and run away. But I didnt, because I hate anyone who is ignorantly republican...a.k.a Burr.
Rebecca came to UUCC and we sadly watched the Passion, which I HATE. But I had a blast with her last night! Fun times at Caribou, the story of my life. Marc and Brattney came by, those crazies. John Cahill offered me disgusting looking pizza and that was my weekend in a nutshell. |
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[Sep. 26th, 2004|08:10 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | The Killers | ] |
The Cricket Cellular Phone Company is a rip-off bore. I had to get a new phone number. But in order to know it you must firat break the code:
704
(1st 3 digits) Two minutes before CMS schools start.
THEN..9
(last 3 digits) If one was taken away from all the number line...counting would start with...
If you are really that much of a dumbass than you'll have to ask me. I'm grounded tonight for telling my dad "fuck you." But it was worth it because I was about to punch BOTH of them in the FACE for a good majority of the day.
Call me, I'm death bored. |
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| Pilgrims= Nonstop Laughter. |
[Sep. 24th, 2004|09:42 pm] |
David Nolan and kind of me too, made a livejournal called PILGRIMFACE (add him) and I must say it is by far the best idea in the world and I think if he let me write some entries too and we sold it we would make a trillion bazillion dollars, and that is the EXACT amount.
I love UUCC. It makes my life...better.
On other notes, scratch that "Sat night" bullshit entry, I sound like a dirty slut and I'm sorry everyone witnessed that. In fact I'll be deleting it now. Sorry...mystery..boy, but you know it wouldn't be of either of our characters.
Speaking of characters, who should I be for character day tommorow? PFFT, like you can help me right now the night before. Scratch that TOO. Gosh! Scratch everything....stupid...cat. head. hey. stup. |
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| Permisuous Activity |
[Sep. 22nd, 2004|09:52 pm] |
I've decided, seriously, that I'm sick of a non-existent sex life and have planned(yes planned) to hook up with someone who shall remain nameless until after. I am excited cause it's needed to happen for awhile. Unfinished business. You'll never guess so don't even try.
Come on Saturday night... |
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| Roller Coastin' |
[Sep. 22nd, 2004|09:17 pm] |
Yesterday, I came home from rehearsal, lit insense and put it in this place in my room where the smoke just floats over me. This new insense especially, I turned on my new "It's A Long Drive For Someone With Nothing To Think About" album and just lets the sunlight create shadows on the thickest trails of insense I've ever seen in my life. It was the most amazing thing, just the swirls of smoke that seemed to never end moving towards this unfathomable location. I feel asleep and just...stayed that way for 11 hours. I'm just...spent I guess.
I don't know, I'm just trying to make things better for everyone else, not me. I want people to look forward to seeing me everyday, to be that person that puts their problems aside, because I mean, if you really THINK about it. It's actually kind of pointless to complain and bring others into your little "pits of Hell." No matter what those physco babble bullshitters say sometimes it's BETTER to keep things to yourself, and have a constant positive outlook. Damn, was that a run-on sententence or what? Oh no I sound like Joyce.
UGH! Speaking of Joyce. Back to school night was tonight and Joyce and I were joking around like we do and Becky just had this...weird pissed look on her face, because Joyce never really favored Austin because Austin didnt have his shit together, understandable right? WELL, we got in the car and my dad commented that he was glad Joyce was impressed and Becky goes: (I fucking swear.)
"Well, dont take this the WRONG WAY, but I see that little SEXUAL THING you've got going on with Joyce..and.."
And I said WHAT!!!!!!!!!!? I almost punched her in the fucking face. I was so close. You don't even know. And she tried to cover it up, by saying shit like "I mean't boy/girl sex" And I was like bullshit, you know you were implying that sex would be an easy way to get ahead. And she said "well, I know Joyce favors the girls who bat their eyes and laugh at his jokes...blahblah"
And I just told her, straight up, shut the hell up, you don't know what you are saying.
I mean, it was so FUCKING OUT OF LINE. I mean, a.) he is engaged and b.) I am SIXTEEN and c.) I don't NEED to use ANY KIND of sexual message to get ANYWHERE and D.) I'm not even sexy!
Gosh! Friggin idiots.
Oh, the airport found my new old cell phone (its new cause I brought it back from Texas, old because its my same #)
What a day. |
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| That's Just Plane Insanity. |
[Sep. 20th, 2004|10:23 pm] |
Sometimes I really do think I'm the funniest person in the world. On the plane back, this woman beside me was being SOOO NOSY. So I fucked with her quite a bit. Call me for a detailed description, because I don't want to ruin my masterful impersonation WITH detailed picture props used in the ACTUAL event. But, god it was funny. I don't think I've ever looked so lunatic, in my whole life.
ACL was splendid, saying goodbye was no fun. Modest Mouse played the same set, I just have to let go of my fanaticism. They will never be "old" Modest Mouse.
No, I didn't get anyone presents. I have no money. |
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[Sep. 18th, 2004|02:36 pm] |
Everyone who reads my livejournal within the next 6 hours will find themselves in luck, because I just so happened to chack my mail and find that ACL, the concert I'm going to tonight is going to be broadcasted live on YAHOO, just click the top and you can hear what I'm hearing. Right now I'm listening to The Soundtrack of Our Lives, which i would be SEEING LIVE, but my ride is women who prefer to "relax" anyway go here and listen
http://launch.yahoo.com/promos/austincitylimits/default.asp
Dashboard is at 7
Pixies at 9
Howie Day is at 4
The only band can't hear is Modest Mouse, not that you would be able to anyway because people scream the whole show, I'm serious it's INSANE. I might get mobbed. |
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| Curious George....Got Kilt. |
[Sep. 18th, 2004|01:25 pm] |
FILL IT OUT BITCHES...or it will be a personal reflection on you ;resulting in the end of our friendship...oh I'm serious. START A TYPIN!
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When's the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you? |
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[Sep. 18th, 2004|02:09 am] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Doin' The Cockroach....YEAH! | ] |
H.O.L.Y S.H.I.T!!!!
I saw Modest Mouse bitches!! Well, saw them for 15 minutes and then heard them really well. FOR FREE. It's called standing on the sidewalk right next to an outdoor concert. I actually had the eqivilent of a BACKSTAGE view and I was literally 20 feet behind the lead singer who had on a crazy ass bird mask. But then Mr.Yuppie who manages Stubbs came out and was like what the hell! Get off the sidewalk none of you paid and this one dude was like "fuck you mannn! the fucking concert is fucking sold out! who the fuck are we hurting?" and then Mr.Yuppie told the bouncer to shut the door to backstage so we couldnt see anymore and everyone was like "fuck that!" and a couple of riots went down. One dude climbed a tree next to the stage and then climbed up on the 50 foot wall and no one even did anything. It was hilarious because I knew they were going to play Float On and they did, but it was at the wierdest time, like maybe the 4th song, so after some people left (fuckity fucktards) and BAM! they switched to authentic hyper Modest Mouse and played these all these unexpected songs and god, I feel so complete.
DOIN THE COCKROACH was the best live song I've ever heard, so was Blame It on The Tetons and Wild Pack of Family Dogs. I called Landon during Bukowski but he couldn't hear. Oh well, I heard bitch. I HEARD I HEARD!!
I JUST FULFILLED A LIFE GOAL!!!AHHHH!!!!AND I GET TO DO IT AGAIN TOMMOROW!!! |
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| FUCK YOU STUBBS BBQ: FUCK YOU UP YOUR STUPID ASSES |
[Sep. 17th, 2004|07:31 pm] |
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| | Modest Mouse, I'm torturing myself. | ] |
Hmmp, I feel like a spoiled little BRAT right now but yet I also feel like ranting about the DUMBASS record store who gave my mom tickets for THE WRONG FUCKING SHOW, and Stubbs BBQ who "doesn't give refunds" OR exchanges because "modest mouse is sol out" so now my perfect Mosdest Mouse concert fantasy has been SHATTERED. I mean, I still get to see them at ACL tommorow but it's only AN HOUR and I predict rightfully that the will be playing to their shit shit teeny boppin audience not to fans which means only GOOD NEWS For people who love bad news, which are oook songs but I want to hear Trailer Trash and Wild Pack of Family Dogs and their less popular songs from Moon and ANt, and Lonesome Crowded West. I still get to see Critters Buggin and my mom agreed to take me a little early so I can try and sneak into Modest Mouse before the other show starts. But chances are slim.
Oh yeah, I'm in Austin (duh) and it's pretty in an Italian looking hilly desert kind of way. I got a kickass shirt and CRAP loads of jewelry already. Oh, and this morning I got a groovy haircut and I look like the Tre Semme girl. Oooh lala. |
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| Off To The Alamo |
[Sep. 16th, 2004|09:42 pm] |
My plane leaves at 8:30 I'm excited, particularly about modest mouse and seeing my doggie.
I saw my Han and it was awesome, Madi too AND a pit stop at Jonathan's(who is most def. my best friend)
Oh my, what an exciting day. I hope this fuckass hurricane doesnt ruin my flippin trip and I double hope I don't die.
Now I jinxed the possibility of death because I mentioned it. Death death death on a plane.
I love you all, cherish that. For it may be the last time. Shit watch me not even GO. Fuckity fuck the hurricane. |
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| Memo: Fall Down...Check One: Yes/ No/ ?/ Dumbass |
[Sep. 15th, 2004|10:00 pm] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Dont Stop The BEat | ] |
getBACKinYERcage: you precious boy you
getBACKinYERcage: -madame monjimbo
getBACKinYERcage: haha
KillUglyFatKids: hahaahahha
KillUglyFatKids: hey, dont mess with the jimbo
getBACKinYERcage: I LOVE the jimbo
getBACKinYERcage: haha
getBACKinYERcage: this girl
getBACKinYERcage: today came in late
getBACKinYERcage: and she fucking SLIPPED right at the entrance
getBACKinYERcage: and fell on her face
getBACKinYERcage: and madame monjimbo
KillUglyFatKids: OH!HAHAH
getBACKinYERcage: was like
getBACKinYERcage: oooooh non non
getBACKinYERcage: hahaha
getBACKinYERcage: you precious fille
getBACKinYERcage: are you okay?
getBACKinYERcage: and she was like
getBACKinYERcage: "its REALLY SLIPPERY"
getBACKinYERcage: in upmost humiliation
getBACKinYERcage: HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
getBACKinYERcage: and Monjimbo
getBACKinYERcage: she was like
getBACKinYERcage: ooooh non ill mop up dee puddle
getBACKinYERcage: and she did
getBACKinYERcage: WITH STUDENT HANDBOOKS!!!
KillUglyFatKids: hahaha ah, she would. shes seriously the nicest teacher i ever had. i mean its kinda annoying, cuz shes always trying to instill her ethics in her classes. i mean, they are always admirable, but its hilaious.....HAHA!!!
KillUglyFatKids: hahahahaha
getBACKinYERcage: and people were like trying to stifle themselves
getBACKinYERcage: so I just said really loudly
getBACKinYERcage: "everyone just go ahead and laugh b/c come on....falling down is FUNNY"
getBACKinYERcage: and...they did
KillUglyFatKids: hahahaha!
getBACKinYERcage: the end
getBACKinYERcage: except for "miss fally downy"
getBACKinYERcage: she cried (not really)
KillUglyFatKids: do i know the girl?
KillUglyFatKids: so i can go laugh at her
KillUglyFatKids: justkiddin
getBACKinYERcage: hahahahahahaha
getBACKinYERcage: miss fally downy
getBACKinYERcage: one point for me
getBACKinYERcage: HAHAHAHAH
KillUglyFatKids: haha ten points for you
I think that when you fall down you should just make it an even BIGGER deal, and like scream "my leg, my leg!!!" or something equally funny because this produces good character. And makes you look like you MEANT to do it. I'm full of ideas. I'm full of shit.
That was the highlight of my day. I looked up some hilarious pictures of "BRUNO" on Google.com for our math project. Landon threw away a perfectly good everything bagel with cream cheese and I'm still dwelling on it. I made made 3 mix CDs for Kesel, Boy and StupStup. |
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| Max Drinks Andy's Manhood |
[Sep. 13th, 2004|02:04 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | angry and exhausted | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Carole King- Home Again | ] |
I don't really feel like updating, but I will.
I'm infuriated at a certain comment on my livejournal, left by one of my best friends. Apparently, I don't have justification to cry, my life is one sided and bland. My feelings that I foolishly trusted some with are "blahblahblah." And I would sit here and complain and tell everyone exactly WHY I'm crying, but I feel that it would cheapen and dramatize the problems that are very real and hard to deal with, so I won't. I also feel I could retaliate, but I wouldn't do that because it's just not worth it. I don't want to start anything with anyone because its just fucking...pointless. But know, how much what you said, even if it was two damn sentences without harmful intentions, hurt me. Be careful about what you say to people in crucial places.
On happier occasions, I had a UBER fun time at both of yesterday's events. We dressed up in elaborate tacky costumes, Andrew was a baby, and Drama Boosters took our picture. Then at the lock-in we had midget wrestling/ ameboa wrestling and made Max drink Andy's "manhood" water with a Frito in it for a mere drink of the soft kind. Good times good times. It was wild. Max is my new best friend. I think thar distraction is somewhat of a manwhore and he was eaten alive on sight, so obviously, it was a pipe dream, like most plans of mine.
I've had 3 hours of sleep in a 26 hour period and I'm slightly delirious (I'm seeing Care Bears haha Marky) and now I'm talking to David Nolan about patience and human instict and how near death experiences have the same characteristics as hallucinigens and it's all very interesting therefore, I do not want to end the convo even though I am seeing double.
Basic Bam, I need one of dem.
-Moi |
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| Bikers circle us in parking lot |
[Sep. 12th, 2004|12:03 am] |
Busy with school, parental problems, play rehearsal; learning to act like a manic nympho, live journal bullshit amoungst others which I have'nt even read yet because surprisingly I don't give a shit, neglecting friends, neglecting family, somewhere in here I had some fun, withdrawal from a positive attitude.
OKay, that sums up the time in between my last update and now. Which is a long period for me, the addict. Basically, I'm trying to stay occupied, so I don't think about the things that would technically be "healthy" to express to others who could "help" me.
Picnic in the Parking Lot should be smashing, as should the UULockin, I'm mildly excited. attempted to go to A.A with Sara, Diana, Rebecca but decided against because a.)it looked obivous that we werent serious and b.)when we got to the church in the heart MINT HILL I was surrounded by couples in trucks and fucking bikers like 12 of them circling us. Dippy dooo dah. Dippity day. Rebecca is home. We hung out tonight, and saw Maggie and Elizabeth, it was awesome, new faces are fun.
I need a distraction, think I have someone in mind, no...another someone. To distract me from the real someone. I am trying really really hard, but I'm not succeeding in convincing myself that it's meant to be.
Is it? Who fucking knows? Regrets regrets. Just waiting for the decisions I make today to come and hit me in the face tommorow. BAM! That was for Ben. The "bam" I mean.
I'm so tired. I can't believe I'm havent convinced myself I'm dying yet considering last year I was "sick" 2 out of every five days.
I feel like the shittiest person ever because I haven't even called Han to tell her whats going on. She has to read this vague ass journal and I know it kills her and I'm so fucking sorry for that.
I'm trying guys, I'm trying. Just note that my priorites arent priorities at all, but random events that throw themselves my way. Sorry to all for being a wierd ass version of Hannah, especially this week.
"Get you act together
Get your shit togetherr."
-Modest Mouse. |
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| Reinactment in the Rain |
[Sep. 8th, 2004|04:53 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | jubilant | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Dont Let It Bring You Down | ] |
Everything after school was cancelled. Because...
If you looked outside at exactly 2:26ish you would see that it was pouring. And I think we all know what I do in the rain. Have sex. No. Not really.
But I would, if given the chance. Any takers?
Andrew and I ran to the car only to see Kesel and Landon running away from us, so we sit in the car and wonder what the hell they are doing when they run back up the ghetto ass hill soaked and they were saying "we just screamed, we just screamed! like Garden State!" so I shreik in delight and beg Andrew to get out of the car so we can run up on the wall and do it again. So we all get out and Landon took my hand and we yelled at the top of our lungs. Not once, but twice. In front of so many people.
And I didn't even care that we looked like complete freaks, cause we REALLY did, more so to the people who hadnt seen the movie. I didn't care because it felt real and insane and good.
Then I got full out super soaked and just ran through all the mud and flash flooding in the damn school parking lot, darting all the cars and just having childish, carefree fun.
And just to top it all off. After getting lost downtown. We walk into Caribou to find Landon sitting there with a plastic trash bag on, beautiful and funny combined.
I was super composed today. In case you were wondering. How the aftermath was handled.
"Don't let it bring you down
It's only castles burning,
Just find someone who's turning.
And you will come around."
-Neil Young |
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| Rejected |
[Sep. 7th, 2004|10:56 pm] |
"Thanks for presenting the situation smoothly"
Yes, that's me, I present everything smoothly. Little do you know that the front is paper thin, it covers up the gaps that I might have let you fall into. I'm really funny and cool. But I'll never be what you wanted, I can't give you what I don't have. But I can make a joke out of it. I can pretend it's okay. And I will.
So I played some play some sad music, turned off the lights, and realized that this feeling was as familar as the ceiling above my head.
What am I doing wrong?
Waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting. That's the last time I make the first move. And my horoscope says:
"Don't withdraw yourself, for you will suffer permanent consequences"
Smile and laugh and FORGET. PAPER or PLASTIC? forwards or backwards? or standing still?
Why the fuck am I not good enough for anyone? I'm so god damn tired of being the best friend. I want to be the desired, the loved, the WORTHY, the importance.
I'm giving up.
"I'm so hard to handle, I'm selfish and I'm sad.
Now I've gone and lost the best baby that I ever had.
Oh I wish I had a river,
I could skate away on."
-Joni Mitchell |
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| Open Tha DOA' Get on tha FLOA! everybody walk tha dinosauo! |
[Sep. 5th, 2004|07:15 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | groggy | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Blue- Joni Mitchell | ] |
sweet fate agreed with me. im at rebeccas. we were quite the drunk last night. "a"boy and "r"girl made a big no no that involved drunken messages on someones machine and now hannah says "oh shit,"
damnit, yes they told that someone that I liked him, and it's very sad because I was going to make him a "I've desperately trying to tell you that I'm...madly in love with you."...MIX TAPE...for his birthday. haha no just kidding. But I DID want to tell him MYSELF. oh well, whats done is done.
I won the ultimate self bet yesterday because I got to go here. and my dad didnt even CALL and check up on me. haha scorrre.
I REALLY miss my Han. Her and her damn quality family time and rules always taking up our potential fun.
In other news, J.T succeeded in acheiving a lifelong goal yesterday which involved lot's of hot sex with her soul mate. Guitar playing, nudity, the works. I'm really happy for her.
I'm hungry. We are going to the Pancake House, so I can be tortured by the smells of food I can't afford...cause I have 16 cents to my name....damn NODA temptations...like...TicTacs of course. |
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| Just ONE Night of Crazy. Just Give Me This. |
[Sep. 5th, 2004|06:14 pm] |
I WANT TO GO TO REBECCA'S! We already completed our checklist. I'll die if my dad won't let me go...
we went to NoDa, Andrew can come, Coles is coming. It's not fair. We are going to have such a blast.
IF...I can go.
Oh the anticipation of getting permission to indulge in activities that are no no's. COME ON COME ON! don't let me down oh sweet fate of mine. |
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| The Good Times Are Killing Me |
[Sep. 4th, 2004|11:25 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | bouncy | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Groove Riot (which Rebecca has too!) | ] |
Tonight was probably the best night I've had so far this year, Rebecca came home today and she picked me up and we went to Jack iN tha box. But the people were taking SOOOO long to take our order and Rebecca was like "hellooo?' and I was like ha, shut up! But then they took even LONGER so we started doing funny voices. Like Ralph saying "we're starvin'!" and then...came the independent talents. First I was like in this horrible "Irish" accent "Ar, In Iyraland this would nevah happen! we came to America to gets away from thee famine!" and then Rebecca said in this HILARIOUS cocky Brit accent "when Iiii was at Hahvard business school, no one was eva THIS late." oh my god. I LOST IT. I think it was the best imitation I 've ever heard.
So then it was on ho to Bou and this weird ass piss drunk foreigner came up to me sitting alone and started whispering this gibberish and getting MAD cause I didnt understand. something about "I like your donut hole.." and I was fucking DUMBFOUNDED and just tried to ignore him right? Then Rebecca comes out, and he starts up again, like being all drunky and wet breathy, it was insane. So we are like "uhhhhhhh..." and he like leans into my ear and TRIES TO STICK HIS TONGUE IN IT! I swear so I like swerve away and it was so CREEPY. So he gets MAD! and I'm like can you please go away, and he repeats what I said in this men voice and the manager comes over and it was all just nerve racking. thats my story. andrew and that other boy I know (haha I did that to piss you off) met us and it was a blast. I love them all so much. ok, that was the real end. goodnight. |
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| Where Have All The Cowboys Gone-onn onnn? |
[Sep. 4th, 2004|06:22 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | random ass CD I found, it's damn good | ] |
David was in front of us in the turning left lane and I was you know, flipping him off and such which I did repeatedly for about a mile, then I was looking for something on the floor and didn't see him turn but there was a car ahead of us that looked like his, so we pulled up and I was already prepared to flip him off again, when to my surprise I realized it was an old lady. madness I tell ya, madness. poor old lady. she shouldnt drive if she doesnt want to be flipped off!
I have gone to Caribou every single day since school started with the exception of one. that is a little obsessive, a lot obsessive. i mean, i just got there to smoke. so techincally, its not like...i heart coffee 24/7.
i was going to hang out with stacey p, we are friends again, but we switched to sunday, then hannah was going to come over but she couldnt, so now I should be cleaning my room, so I can go out with Grace and Koichi and Ben, but I'm not. and at this very minute the renta are at costco, buying bullshit in bulk. hurry hannah, hurry.
reuben your numnber is "off or out of the service area" so FIX IT BITCH! i'm having a poetry streak right now, and that's good because, poetry is...poetic. oh yeah quote THAT! bitches.
landon keeps making these remarks suggesting I like andrew more, and it's such bullshit cause I seriously love them both the exact same amount. oh, those boys. they are so...funny. "not funny haha funny queer."
haha SLINGBLADE! what an outrageous movie, I have an unnatural passion for it.
I rented In America and I must say it's in my top ten. well-made, well-written, well-shot. four stars. bravo. says Hannah Ebert.
AUSTIN IS HOME...I actually saw him for a WHOLE five minutes. score!
ok, time for cinderella to getsa cleanin' befo' da masta's getsa home. |
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| BamBOOZLE |
[Sep. 3rd, 2004|03:33 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | bamboozled | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | never ending math equation | ] |
I feel bamboozled.
You don't know what this means. I just made it up. It's now the word used to express emotions all at once. I feel like crying because I like someone and I feel like laughing because Andrew says funny things sometimes that follow me home and cheer me up and I feel like yelling...for no particular reason...just they did it in Garden State...so therefore, why not? and I feel like working to improve my run-on sentences.
Sam made fun of my poem. Not surprising. I apologized to Nick, never thought I'd see the day, now we are "attempting a friendship." I miss Rebecca, I'm sorry she is rooming with a lezzie feminist who walks around naked.
My phone is getting disconnected, I can't pay my bill. the Fall Ball is the same night as Yonder Mountain, disappointing, cause I hate decisions. max+ben+koichi and I put some random ass note in someone's church reminder that said:
YOU WON!!! please contact us to recieve your prize!
and on the back it said in the corner all small "offff....NUTHIN!"
we are lame and fun, for everyone.
I don't know if it's always just been ME, or if things are really changing. But there are points where I feel like everyone will eventually turn gay or that everyone will start doing shrooms all the time. I mean, I guess it's just becoming apparent, but it just makes me wonder if I'm changing or it the times are changing. Maybe both?
I want to DRIVE, I want to go on DATES, where is my 1980s movie life? damnit! TELL ME! I'm going to make like Reuben and quit smoking, but only if he agrees to be my sponsor.
It's a nasty habit, sometimes I like look down at that brown leaky tar and I'm like....what the hell am I doing? But I keep a puffin just the same. cause that's what good girl scouts do.
yeah, I don't know where that came from. |
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| UnENtitled |
[Sep. 1st, 2004|09:12 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | poetic and PISSED | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Such Great Heights (slow one) | ] |
Un..entitled
Welcome to these
resentment holidays
I’m bent into shapes of unreasoning
For the moth sewn shut
Still breathes denial
Familiar roads offer no routes
To kind destinations
Yet in the abyss of unkempt capacities
I can feel my own self-preservation
Intertwined with yours
The crime scene tape wrapped around us both
The molecules in our lips
Creating the perfect diversion
Once and for all
We will find a path that accommodates
Those that occupy a mysterious hollowness
A bottomless fall
And escape for us, over-analyzers
A solution from a dream. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 31st, 2004|08:49 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | The Graden State soundtrack | ] |
It's the strangest thing how films and songs and simple converstaions can have such deep impacts on you. It makes me want take physcology and find out why. I listened to the Garden State soundtrack about fifteen times yesterday, I honestly can not think of a voice more beautiful than Nick Drake's. I wish my rocks could play his songs into my ears all day long.
I was thinking over and over again about the conversation I had with David Nolan on Friday, it just keeps running through my head. I asked him if he had seen Garden State, that title is slowly but surely becoming less significant to me, since you know, now it's "popular" I guess. Anyway, he said that he was probably the only person in the world who thought it was overrated. So of course I told him "explain yourself bitch" And he said something like it was "planned out to look so real, that it was almost UNrealistic." and he talked about how it was just this series of random events made to make the movie look honest, and how he just didn't like how the climax was so anticipated and dramatic, because you could just feel them waiting to scream into the neverending abyss of life in the pouring rain. As cynical as David is,(hey, he said it not me)I really truly get him. I just wish I could manipulate words like he does. To make what I'm saying twist itself around someone's mind forcing out the old ideas and replacing with unimaginable context. Come to think of it, I couldn't really back up my argument, just general responses like...yes, no. I was kind of even starting to switch sides as we were talking. But, it's not that he didn't like the movie that bothered me. I said something like it made me angry because I want to live in that movie, and that I wanted something like they had and I can't have it right now. And he he said "exactly!" because it doesn't exist. But I argued that happiness DOES exist, same with love, that's it happening to the people around us.
I have never personally been in love, I don't know if David has either, but I would hope that it is very real. I just always imagined love was when someone took your picture when it is pouring down rain, when the shadows on the windsheild warp your face in one of those very artistic ways. And he believed truly in his heart that the picture was beautiful, not because of the way he took it, but because you were in it. That always seemed about right, love that didn't make a big deal about itself. Not that, typical holding hands in the mall bullshit. Who wants that? |
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| "Burgulars/Landon is A LIAR Come To Isabel's House" a narrative by Me |
[Aug. 28th, 2004|11:19 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| |  drunk | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | LANDON BURNED ME GARDEN STATE!!!!!! | ] |
Today, was pretty awesome. I had to babysit, but before that I had spent the night with Grace and we had so much fun and I can't believe how fucking beautifully high I got, I didn't think it was possible to not have ANY paranoia, but my old buddy proved me wrong. It was awesome awesome AWESOME.
I was 100% impressed. I hung out with fuckin...Frank Bryant, who was in fact my first "boyfriend" in 5th grade but we broke up after a scandal that took place at JUMPYARD!, in which he cheated on me with a 6th grader in the ball bath. I swear to God. A Fun reminder of old memories that boy is. I want to hang out with him again soon.
I think D.G ripped my friends the FUCK OFF, wait I'm almost POSITIVE he did, and it pisses me off, but like...I can't really help it. A crook is a crook. But at least what he gave us was good.
Today though, back to today. Oh it was great. I didnt even have to convince my dad to go to Isabel's and her parents are out of town which = an awesome fun time. Alledgedly, Isabel's mom called and said the police thought someone was in her crib cause the alarm went off, so her and Landon drive to her house and call and they say the window is broken out and the door is open etc and they have butcher knives and are searching the house. So we RUSH over there and get all screamy and shit, only to find out they pranked us. And Katie Goforth was with us and she was like, call the COPS and they said like..."NO NO! don't do that." Those lying little idiots whom I love so dearly. Landon and Isabel I mean. Andrew, Rebecca and Diana also were called to "the scene" but I think deep down we all knew it was funny, cause I ran throught the house and was like "come the fuck out FUCKER!!" and "They know what we did last summer!!" So then, after that fiasco, they stayed over and I had Bailey's and we told stories and watched my version of the Blair Witch Project(3) and Piedmont Pointe and it was so so fun. But then they left. And I killed myself. The end. Only kidding, church is gonna be fun tommorow. I'm excited. |
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| This joke is not funny but is |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|10:42 pm] |
getBACKinYERcage: and freckles too
getBACKinYERcage: mmk
getBACKinYERcage: make sure you do that
ILubLadayDonkays: freckles is dead
getBACKinYERcage: SAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
getBACKinYERcage: what the hell
ILubLadayDonkays: dead serious about low prices at wal mart
getBACKinYERcage: that isnt FUNNY
getBACKinYERcage: HAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAH |
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| Hong Kong Is Over Priced |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|10:03 pm] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | positively BEAT | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Le Tigre | ] |
I thought the whole campaign of vintage clothing was for it to be INEXPENSIVE, Hong Kong's prices are no different from department stores. Value Village however, that place is poppin. I got a load of awesome parcels there today and I am thouroughly pleased with the selection and prices. Thanks VALUE VILLAGE!
Haha, ever seen those commericals? With like..the four year old's thanking like...fuckin carpet cleaning services. How stu-pod.
The best thing of today was Bunk and it's going to be a shuper fun club. I'm so excited. Guys, I want to be VP so elect me please. Thank you. Joyce told me he was "so damn proud of me" today and said I was his "remarkable, wonderful, so so smart student of the day." I swear. Satan said this. It made me feel smarter than I ever have before and it encourages me to do great things. Like rule the whole world...now who wants Italy?
David's Rugrat's fruit snacks are DEFORMED and I swear when he opened them today he was humming the theme song. We had to have a talk.
Sam is absolutley amazed at smarterchild, he doesnt understand why it replies so fast. If he wasnt my brother I'd swear he was Amish. D.Garlington said that he told people he was a "Shaman", this made me laugh quite the hard. I miss him and my Mom so much. I can't WAIT to go out there. Watch my plane crash. Oh god.
New Thought:
I'm going to Graces tommorow and we gonna have fu-un. I'm excited. And then Izzy's parents are gone gone gone and left her with her new car car car. And this equals trouble trouble trouble. But fun fun fun. Am I the on-ly one-un-un...who wants to have fu-uh-unnn?
Man oh man, my dad makes very poor selections at blockbuster, so very very poor. I mean out of ALL the movies he rented fuckin..Hildalgo, and its worse, he BOUGHT Legally Blonde TWO. I think I need some valium or something cause I get overly critical of people who select SHIT movies and BUY them, when they can buy ME the sensational movies I want like Kill Bill Vol. 2, Edward Sissorhands, Eternal Sunshine, Little Big Man, Apocalyse Now/ Hearts of Darkness, and many other classics. He is officially not allowed to go to blockbuster without me as a result of his carelessness.
Oh, and it's nice to know that Andrew is the ONLY one who REALLY cares about Landon. According to Landon, who by the way, is omniscient and knows. I mean, whatever, I think he knows it was wrong to say that, but it did hurt my feelings a little, but life goes on. Tommorow is a new day, the first day of the rest of my life. |
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| TOP TEN YEARBOOK QUOTES OF 2004 |
[Aug. 26th, 2004|07:01 am] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | spendmymoney!callineverybodyhoney!and windupsingin'theblues! | ] |
I was looking throught the 2003 yearbook just like the last 100 times but except this time I actually read the captions and now that I made the decision to start doing a top ten list every entry like David Letterman does on LAte Nite. Sigh, 5...4...3..2..1 seconds before Eddie poses off me. Am I right? or am I right?
OKay here goes:
10.) "It's hard cause sometimes my big stromboli gets in the way of my schoolwork."
-Drew G
9.)"Sometimes when I'm driving at night and I see the head lights of another car driving down the road, I have the incredible urge to swerve into them."
-John Cahill
7.)" I love the rush of performing for an audience"
-Landon Phillips
6.)"Look Landon it's a bat"
-Me
5.)"Oak Island is where the Cool Club started. Hence the glasses at night."
-Andrew Tate
4.)"I babaysit. It's great birth control"
-Kate Allen
3.)"Man summer was just a time of joyous laziness. It was a BLAST"
-David Nolan
2.)"My favorite english project this year was my mixed tape because it required all these complicated dance moves to go with it. It CHANGED MY LIFE!" (whaaaaat!?)
-David Nolan
1.)" I love it when you have a class that gets to go outside in the field and do studies, even if it's just to a park in the ghetto!" (the best one of the year I swear.)
-Sara Johnson
And the funniest thing in the whole yearbook is David Nolan's picture. A quote in itself.
Rebecca and I went shopping again. Hong Kong was closed. I was almost 100% convinced I was going to dread my hair, then I remembered the small detail that I'm in David and Lisa, and can't. Damnit. I'm gonna miss Reecca so much. Stupid dumb girl.
I'm full blown crushing, and although it's nice it's also frustrating because Im impatient and want something to happen because I feel like times a wasting. |
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| FACE FLAGS!!! An invention by HANNAH! |
[Aug. 25th, 2004|10:40 am] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | happizzle | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | U2 tape bought at Sal.Army. Let's bring cassettes back man. | ] |
Tonight was the first leadership planning meeting for UU and I had AWESOME ideas. I was an idea machine(not to be confused with Eli who is THE idea machine) and one of them was FLAGS, like with your FACE on them!...like instead of hand raising. FLAG raising, cause it's more fun that way. Anywho, things are going to change for the better in church this year and Im actaully excited cause I adore church anyway.
Reba, Landy, and I went "shopping" although really we only went to the Salvation Army where I got four dollar jeans and a wack ass skirt. We would have done more but Landon wanted to see Andrew. Stupid boys. You boys are stupid. No not really cause I would rather them be happy and see eachother outside of school then look through other people's junk.
I decided against APE cause I want to have fun this year.
Today was a fun day cause I invented Neekki-fuck which Sara spells as Nikkifuck, but it's SNEAKY FUCK, noun, as in LANDON. Who steals my money AND a bite of my bagel and I DON'T KNOW HOW HE IS SO FUCKING DISCREET ABOUT IT! Its like he is a little leprecuan..(in the bedroom) who is out to get me (in the bedroom) and he has magic powers I've never seen before..(in the bedroom)And we made yet another club but this club is called WAR and in order to join you have to say and wink at the same time "JOIN THE(happy)...warrr(evil voice)Crackheads accepted...and cherished.
Okay, I'm so wierd. Don't ya love it though?
Oh yeah...then I saw Andrew but like...most of the time...he isnt important...just like...Diana...wait...WHO are they again?
Ha, I kid.
I miss my Hannah-banana. Call me fool. LAndon made us a happy book. He doesnt know I burned it...shhh. I'M JUST KIDDING. |
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| English Reg or A.P.E. What's It Gonna Be? |
[Aug. 24th, 2004|07:56 am] |
Whiteside approached me today and said that Joyce told him that I was one of the top three writers in his APUSH and he wanted to know why I wasnt taking AP Eng, but I'm really scared to because it's so much work and I'm so bad at doing homework. Oh well, I'll think about it.
Holy shit, in other news. I went a visited with my Mam-Maw and Pap-Paw b/c I feel guilty for not seeing them more and they just fucking gave me for NO REASON "a few dollars" for back to school money and I mean these are the same people who gave me 16 dollars on my 16th Birthday, But I looked in the envelop and was like awesome a twenty...oh wait..is there a five behind it...wait whats that behind it! It was a five, it was another twenty, actually three more twenties. I just got 100 dollars for NOTHING. Yeah grandparents. I dont know I feel kind of guilty though. I'm a horrible grandchild and neice and everything.
I think my Landon is in a spell of slight depression and it makes me sad. But honestly I think it's good depression, enlightening depression. The kind that makes you see things in a more realistic and beautiful perspective. I think it's cause I burned him some good music. Like the Moon and Antartica and Give Up. And then we saw Garden State and I think he is in that phase I used to be in that lasted for a lot longer than it should called "pre-intro intellectuality"
No I made that up, but still it exists I swear.
REBA and I are going to shop at thrift stores tommorow cause I'm rich and I'm blowing every penny on someone else's old clothes. Yee Haw. Heyyy big spendah...
Oh yeah, I got my script today and will be performing in a breakout role as a insane nymphomaniac and I'm really excited because that's such a fun part cause I am such the opposite of a nympho. |
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| Garden State = Infinite Feeling |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|11:08 am] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | somewhat complete | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | Halleluiah- Jeff Buckley | ] |
When I first saw the previews for Garden State when I went to see Eternal Sunshine I thought "holy shit, this is going to be the best movie I'll ever see" and damn, I WAS RIGHT. There are just some movies I can't even describe. It's like you sit in the movie theatre with your mouth open and it's just...difficult to breathe. Because everything about it is just beautiful. BEAUTIFUL.
There was this one point where I just started crying, not because it was said, it actually wasnt. But because like Lost in Translation, they didnt actually have to show all the sex shit and they just showed them sleeping and this very soft, slow version of Such Great Heights was playing. And it made me cry because, I just want that so badly. I think if I just have one moment in my life where I can lay with someone and feel truly happy and in love, that would keep me going forever. I also cried at an equally not sad part when they all stood on top of a broken construction crane and screamed because you could just feel all of them releasing just fucking...everything and seeing people release things just made me want to release and obviously, I couldnt SCREAM in the movie theatre. Last night was just great in general, driving around in the rain with Andrew and Landon, I just...don't think it gets any better.
And so was Friday, seeing Jordan and Robert and Chase was just so happy. I'm so satisfied with me and Jordan's friendship now, and I finally appologized for being such an uptight bitch and trying to fucking PREACH to her about her life and what she needs to be doing. I just finally realized recently that all this commitment and status and your standardized relationship bullshit doesnt matter. It never will. Love is just...love. That's it. One word. And I was so fucking HAPPY, to hear that she and Will might finally get together, even if it's just for one night because sometimes it's one night that can just make you feel more complete than you were.
I'm feeling very poetic and free and I hope this feeling is here to stay because it's the best feeling I've ever had. |
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| Future Best Weekend Ever |
[Aug. 20th, 2004|05:55 pm] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | GRAVITY RISING- MODEST MOUSE | ] |
For those of you who do not know, I will be going to Austin, Texas the weekend of Sep. 16- 19 and I have the privilege of being at the greatest concert known to man. Read and weep.
MY FRIDAY
Tour the city of Austin/ And SHOP.
THE KILLERS FROM 1-2 PM
SPEND MORE TIME IN AUSTIN
MY WONDERFUL, WONDERFUL LEGENDARY SATURDAY
HOWIE DAY 4-5
YES PEOPLE, THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY YOUTH
M.O.D.E.S.T F.U.C.K.I.N.G M.O.U.S.E !!!!!! FROM 5- 6
DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL FROM 7-8
THE PIXIES FROM 8:45 TO 9:45
MY SUNDAY (IF PLANE PERMITS)
BEN KWELLER FROM 3:30 TO 4:30
JACK JOHNSON FROM 4:30 TO 5:30
POSSIBLLY CAKE (?) IF DECIDED FROM 7:45 TO 8:45
AND....
BEN HARPER!!! FROM 8:30- 10
DOES THIS TOP EVERY CONCERT YOU'VE BEEN TO? (DISCLUDING BONAROO SURVIVORS) I THINK SO!!! IF YOU CAN AFFORD A PLANE TICKET YOU CAN ALSO COME WITH ME. YOU HAVE A MONTH TO SAVE UP BITCHES.
OH MODEST MOUSE....DREAMS DO COME TRUE!!!! |
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| Stop Making Sense |
[Aug. 20th, 2004|05:28 pm] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | The Talking Heads- Stop Making Sense | ] |
Today I was surprised to see both Diana the Dumb AND David the close personal friend of TOMMAAAAY from the Rugrats walk into my fim class. So now the whole gang minus Landon and Andrew is in one small space and the doubles my fun and I am very happy.
I also ot out of math....forrrrr NOTHING a.k.a court, where the judge didnt even adknowledge my existence. But the good news is, is that there most likely will never be child support or custody battles ever again. So, that is like ten years of worriing written off in one relatively small sentence. For your entertainment.
I also auditioned for David and Lisa, the play that I think is about a school for retards. But I'm not sure. I hope I get in and that it's funny. Cause...that's...what I hope.
I feel the need to explain even the obvious...why is that? MAYBE BECAUSE...I myself don't like for my questions to be unanswered. Do you?
Anyway my monologue was...ehhh...ook. I forgot part of it but MO wanted me to stop at that point anyway so I GUESS that's okay...maybe. I was one of the few UPPER classmen to audition so maybe that gives me an advantage. I "shorely" hope so.
I love leadership, I have lot's of good ideas that would have been ignored if I wasn't in that class, and everyone is in there which makes it super fun.
KESEL joined Photo so now thats TWO friends. I really really love my friends. Friends..I love you.
And it's been really cool spending so much time with my Dadd cause he is really funny and interesting and I never really got to enjoy that amoungst all the CHAOS of the past 15 years. I'm glad I made this decision.
One of my second cousins died/killed himself? last night because he was hit by a train. He had a lot of problems but the fucked up thing is he has a new baby. And his mom is my closest distant relative and she was very concerned about him just having a couple of problems and now he is dead and I'm sure she is like...positively DEVASTATED. We think he killed himself cause he went around visiting people he doesnt normally see last week and giving away his stuff. It's just really disturbing and sad and I think he deserves some kind of recognition even amidst my busy life. |
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| When You Miss The DEAD Concert...Make Brownies...and eat away your pain. |
[Aug. 19th, 2004|09:51 am] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | I'm Disappointed | ] |
Yes, that's right. Hannah Fucking Whittington is MISSING the flippity fucking DEAD CONCERT. HER, of all people. I am devastated, especially since it would have been really easy to go with someone like Daniel Garlington who up until the last minute kept telling me to go. That's what you get when you are POOR and your parents don't support good music on school nights and your stepbrother is in Greensboro and you real brother is in TEXAS.
God, I really really miss Sam. He is going bonkers. No drug connections or anything. Torturous. I had to write an obituary for Joyce and I named his kids in my list of survivors. Okay I'm really proud of one in particular. They were named Moon, Jerry G, Marley, Mary Jane and my personal favorite...HASHLEY. HAHA! Hashley...is that not EXCELLENT? I think so.
I'm so glad Sara switched to film cause it's gonna be a super mega fun ride. My audition is tommorow and I have to memorize my monologue. Maybe when I am POINTLESSLY waiting outside when my dad drags me to fucking court with him. UGH. I hate this, he won't change the damn date and I'm not saying A WORD without my mom there. Damn republican...no he really isnt. I didnt mean that, haha that is my very worst insult.
Jesse got changed into photo, so now I'm not my only friend in there anymore.
Yes, I am my own friend...arent you? |
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| Rugrats Fruit Snacks = Hernias |
[Aug. 18th, 2004|10:12 am] |
Wow, today was a super mega fun blast. We do nothing in Astronomy, film kicks my "whiteside" ass in awesomeness, leadership and Joyce both are super mega cool (that's RIGHT Sara)and my math teacher is from the Phillipines and she has been in America for two fucking weeks!!!Plus Andrew is in there(for now.) B DAYS ARE WONDERFUL just like every year.
Oh another funny lunch story, David Nolan brought RUGRAT FRUIT SNACKS and I don't know exactly why that made me laugh so hard but it did, cause it just struck me as a lunch a retard would bring, or a blind kid, I don't know but I was like "Heyyyy yousss I gots TOOMMMAY!!!YAAAY." like a metally disabled person and I just laughed uncontrollably and then David started and just, OH! I have such fun with that guy. I love new friends.
I still have so much room organizing to do and crap loads of increasingly difficult APUSH work but I love Joyce and I don't want to drop his class! And my dad is no help, his idea of "encouragement" is like..."Upp ,UPP Hannah, youre gonna flunk out. You should have never signed up for this class. Let me see your book satchel!" haha Ben, just kidding. He does call it a book satchel...awww that makes me just love my Daddy even more, him and his old fashioned 50esque words.
On other notes, I have kind of been avoiding wallowing for my Mom and Sam, I thought I was going to just be okay and happy, but I can kind of feel the homesickness chiming in. I miss them and my mom left me a message and it sounded like she had been really truly crying. I don't know, I just feel really fucking selfish and guilty. Cause she went through a whole lot so we could stay together in this town that she HATES, and now I feel like I've just...abandoned her. I mean, I know SHE left, but I feel guilty for not going with her. And now this Thursday I'm going to be dealing with all this court shit and rearraging the custody and my mom isnt even going to BE HERE for it so I'm scared I'll get tricked into to something I don't want to do. It's all so sketch.
I'm done. |
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| Kill Face Volume TWO |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|09:27 am] |
| [ | THIS LITTLE ALBINO IS: |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | YE OLDE PHONOGRAPHS A' PLAYIN: |
| | I GOT MY CDs BACK!!! | ] |
OK, now where did I leave off? Damn Rebecca, makes me interrupt livejournal. Hah, but I love just the same.
I ALSO SAW SARARR! Whom I havent seen ALL FUCKING SUMMER. And lunch I think was more fun than it has ever ever been in my whole life. I don't think I stopped laughing for even a second. David+Sara+Andrew+Landon= fun for the whole family.
And then Photo is LAME!..well the people are. Cause I'm seriously the ONLY junior besides this dude Brandon B. and I don't know him, and Kate has independent study. SO DAMNIT! And David can't get in because he has schedule conflicts. LOSER! I have film tommorow which is good except it looks like it's ALL guys. Just like NCSA.
And it's just my luck to have english, the class where you TALK TO THE MOST...with the one and only Heather Gainey? Will she get out alive??? Troll voice says:
"I dunnooooo."
HmmmmHMMMhmmmHmmmHMMMMMHUM!ringaroundthaaaaaroooosie....pocketfullofpoooooo-KNIVES!!!!
But JESSIFER is in there as well and it's so much fun having a real live church friend in a core class. I think a lot of girls were overwhelmed that there was a new straight guy. Two actually, counting Kohl. It's like...world NWSA news.
OH YEAH! Me and Landon are starting our OWN paper.Cause I could'nt be in journalism. I MEAN! No...we arent. Haha maybe. I don't think it will work though cause it's "hurtful" and "wicked" but not good wicked. Evil wicked. You get it.
But I want to. In OTHER news:
I think I would like a hermit crab. I'm serious. I would eat it....I MEAN!!! Feeeeed it, and walk it and play with it and take it to Hannah's and let it play with her fugly ass hermit crab. I already picked out a name and EVERYTHING...it shall be called Fukoo. Get it? Get it? Like FUCK YOU! Fukoo.
HAHAHAHHAH!!! I kill myself. I really do.
BANG!
LOL
another joke!!!! I'm on a ROLL!!! |
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